Something to trash.

I dun know

but i think..

I am sure I look so dumb right now.

just like Rihanna goes...

"You look so dumb right now..."

"...you're so ugly when you cry...what else is on."

I dun know what I am doing.

Looking at the Lappy. Not knowing what are awaiting me.

A great surprise? or a great disappointment.

I dun know what I am doing.

I am lost, I am helpless.

I am not the initiator.

I am not the decider.

I am not the one.

Pretend I am capable of handling, while I am struggling.

Pretended to be strong while I am not.

At this time, this moment.

I can't control.

I can't help myself.

All my brain is filled with negative thinkings.

I know maybe I think too much.

Maybe I am stressed

maybe I am paranoid

Maybe it is really nothing, as to others.

Yes. I think too much.

(convincing)

Gosh..

I dun even know what I am talking about already.

Time to Sleep.

Am I.. asking for too much?